A SMALL PRAYER TO YOU GOD.

god please save me, I am tired of this life,
doing what I don't want to do.
I am tired of being a mere puppet,
whose strigns are with someone else.

I am not so good at handling my emotions,
I guess I care a lot for very small things.
but then,this is how I am,
and this is how you made me.

I wont complain if you give me sadness,
but not on on cost of the small happy things I have.
I am somewhat habituated to all this,
but please o god,I cant handle this any more

I am tired of crying,
I am tired of being sad.
I am tired of being miserable,
I am tired of being bad.

yes I am bad and yes,you made me bad,
I always try to do good,but guess its never enough.
somehow,somewhere i fail to make other people happy,
I fail to live up to their expectations.

if you have to take away,then please dont give me all this good things,
dont give those false hopes,
dont give me those untrue dreams,
I am tired of hearing all those lies
and please i cant handle it any more.
please save me god,please................

WHY DO I LOVE YOU ?

yesterday i fell in love with you,
what a beautiful feeling it was.
everything became a blessing,
everything was so admirable.

i never wanted to lose you,
just hold your hands and walk all the way.
this feeling of love so special,
so appropriate, so exclusive, so rare.

your every word was music to my ears,
i wanted to make all your dreams come true.
no one was more important to me,
nothing else mattered to me.

i never felt that someone could be come so essential for my life,
now i couldnt think of anything else but you.
but is this correct ?
because i know that you dont love me, and you wont ever love me.

is all this a mere illusion,a drug doping me,
giving me pain,poisioning me slowly,
taking away my life,piece by piece.
eating me from inside.

why all this happens to me,
why i am the victim of this thing.
can anyone please take this pain away,
can anyone give me back my innocence.

i know you cant be mine,
then why do u dont leave me alone ?
why this pain,this suffering ?

i can not take any more of this,
my tears have dried up,all my strength gone.
i feel hatred for myself,
why cant i control this feeling,
why did all this happen,
why cant i stay away from you,
why do i love you ????
please let me cry again..... let me live again......

WITHOUT YOU

silently i am sitting here.
feeling so lonely,missing you so much.
reminiscence of those days,when we were together,
thinking back of the moments spent with each other.

everything around me reminds me of you,
the breeze feels like your hairs caressing my face.
how i feel asleep on your shoulders,
and how dearly would you wake me up.

i was a fool to let you go away,
i didnt realize i was losing my life.
now my life has become still,
and there is nothing that i can do to bring you back.

why did you have to go away ?
guess my love wasnt good enough for you,
my feelings were not true enough for you.

i wish you were here with me today,
together we would live each moment again,
together we would forget the world again,
together we would walk the same path,

please come back,
i am sorry for what i did.